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Earlier End of BEDA 24

 BEDA was not a successful challenge, I was not able to finish even during the first week. I observed that is really difficult to write something every day. When I started the challenge I was thinking of a lot of possibilities of things to write about, I made a list, it was quite a big list of things, ideas, and stuff that I want to write, search, and bring here, to this space. But I understand that it is not viable to write a lot at the end of the day, it just generates frustration. During the first 4 days, I was able to write, but on the fifth day, I thought about writing the other day, and the other day I couldn't manage to write them Sunday I had 3 days to write about, and so, I thought again, tomorrow I will write for the other 3 days plus the Monday.  So, today, Monday, I sit here to write, but I realize that I don't want to write for the other days. I realize that I like the idea of returning to writing, but writing every day is a little bit too much for me.  So, I am ju

[BEDA 4/30] Learning how to play D&D (dnd)

 I was thinking about what I possibly could write today, so I think that I never talked about D&D, or Dungeons and Dragons RPG. Previously I didn't know much about D&D, one friend of mine in 2016 showed me her dice once, this was a totally different world. I didn't imagine the world of possibilities and how big is the universe. I am glad that now I can learn I play it!  Since October last year, I discovered that there is a group at the place where I study that plays a lot and they are really awesome and into it.  I am just a beginner, and I didn't know exactly how to do my character properly one of the masters helped me (Thank you Alex!) or what die to use and when to use it. Anyway now I have my own set of dice (they are beautiful!), I will take a picture when I make my knitting bag for it. I am really enjoying playing. I didn't play so often but I want to play more. Actually, my character is level 4. Not so much high but it is a nice character to play. I will

[BEDA 3/30] Trying to return to do some stuff

Today was a different day, I tried to do some stuff that I was procrastinating a little bit for a while. I return my reading at Woman who run with the wolfs , I didn't return for the beginning but it is my third of fourth time trying to read this book. I read two or 3 chapters independente when I need it, but trying to return reading one chapter next to other is to heavy. I just get tired reading it. I like the way of the stories and the analysis about the wild woman and the self and subconscious but it is sometimes to much for me. I will try to finish this book reading this time, but I know that I will in the future want to reread it and to add new notes. The olher stuff that I did today was to add some new things in blogspot. It is not properly set yet, but there is more things now. I am thinking about the PT-BR writing and area, because I am not sure if I want to use medium platform. I would like to use only one place with my both languages, but blogspot doesn't work with it

[BEDA 2/30] [BO#02] My opinion about the book The Midnight Library by Matt Haig

I read the book in 3 days, for me it is really fast because I was reading in English and I am not usually reading at this language. Although I got so immersive on the author writing in all the troubles and thoughts of the character, that it made my mind reflect about a lot of things. Nora the principal character and the point of view of all the story commit suicidal, this is on the first 2 lines on the first page. She is a 35 years woman that doesn't see a way of living on middle of so many regrets. I was thinking about me as Nora. She had panic attacks, depression and anxiety. But she knows how to play the piano and she had a Degree in Philosophy, I want to learn piano and I don't have any degree. This is one of my regrets. The Midnight Library is a place where the books represents one different life. Where she could pass for all the lives she wanted. During this her journey she realize so many things and with her I picked me up thinking about my regrets. What would be in my b

[BEDA 1/30] Blog Everyday in April, Day 1/30 ✨

I was trying to write using Hugo in a place hosted at github, but I just realized that I just want to write, the easiest way possible... So, because of this I return to blogspot!  With blogspot I can type in my cellphone (it is what I am doing now) and I can use my photos from Google Photos if want, this is easier and simplest as possible. So, to try to return I want to do a little challenging I will do an old tag that calls BEDA, it could be Blog Everyday April or August, and could be Veda, Vlog Everyday April or August. For this time I will try the only the BEDA and at the same time post a picture everyday in the Instagram account during April. For the first day, it is just a introduction about the challenge, I don't have any pretentious topic that I want to talk about this month, so, it will be what I feel on the respective day. I am happy to return to this space. There is a lot of stuff that I want to change here, but I don't know yet how to change it, so, it will be slowly

[BO#01] My book opinion about Poor things a novel by Alasdair Gray

First, it was my first book in English for me it is a very good sensation to finally finish one novel in English. The reading was at the same time difficult and nice. I really liked to read it. I read it with a Book Club, but I just participated in the discussion in the last meeting because I was too afraid to not understand or finish on time. About the book, I like it so much the story was a little bit confusing at some points because the way of they write, but I could imagine almost the whole thing. I still don’t know if Bella Baxter was real or if she was just an imagination of an imagination. I didn’t give  5 stars on Goodreads  for the book because some stuff was not so clear to me and sometimes the immersive part of the English was quite difficult. I enjoyed how the author of the book makes our minds doubt some stuff. How there are three different stories in one single book, the Author and compiler of the book Poor Things, Archibald McCandless the author of the big story, and Vic

Being a Turtle, my learning process

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This image isn't made by me but it means a lot to me. This week I talked with a Psychologist in English, and it was tough to speak about my feelings in another language. But in the end, it was good. This picture is a reminder of this day and the phrase on it and the animal represented on it means a lot at this time in my life, and I will explain why. Well, like I said in another post, I am 30 years old now, I am not so young and I started to learn a new course again. I never finished one course before, so I really want to finish this new opportunity. Because of this feeling of not wanting to give up again, I asked for help.  I am saying this because I am feeling a little turtle during this journey. I am a really slow learner, in the past I felt guilty because I was not like the others and I wanted to be like the others and I blamed myself for not being. At this time I am trying to understand that I am slower than the others and it is not a problem, and it is more important to embra